I'm just a tree root of your trunk,
a decomposing drunk.
Fuck your analyzation of my intoxication.
I'm the bark that coats your stump.
Your idolizing lump.
Just the twigs amongst your arm
branched out and daring harm.
Enhanced your curiosity
with dire animosity.
God, i hate your leaves...
December 7, 2010
October 10, 2010
10-10-10
The simplest of embraces could bring the world to your feet. Whether deserved or stolen, is the unanswered question. I can't bring myself to put down this pen and bottle my mind of trillions of thoughts, that cannot manage their way out of my hand and onto this paper quick enough. I feel like it is a crime of containment. Eyes heavy. Body numb. It's time. Time to lay my head on the clouds that hold my mind together, while I internally fall apart.
Not again! Why does sleep ever have to come? Who would be so cruel as to create a necessity that holds you at your most voulnerable state? Who would think to let the mind wonder to find trouble through opened doors? Like small children abducted into candy filled vans, only to find no candy had ever been there.
Well here I go again. Off to another night of empty vans...
Not again! Why does sleep ever have to come? Who would be so cruel as to create a necessity that holds you at your most voulnerable state? Who would think to let the mind wonder to find trouble through opened doors? Like small children abducted into candy filled vans, only to find no candy had ever been there.
Well here I go again. Off to another night of empty vans...
Liquid Love
I slipped on ice and broke your heart with salt.
I'm sorry.
I covered it with snow.
I tried to make it better.
But you just wanted to melt.
You said the sun is too hot,
my limbs do not provide you enough shade.
You'd rather be a puddle?
I gave you what you wanted.
It's what you asked for.
Relax, it only burns for a minute.
Well, until the chlorine injected in your veins dissolves.
I 'd kiss you...
But i'm afraid I'll drown.
I could show you a magic trick.
If you wanted.
I could make you disappear.
Close your eyes.
Now count to three.
Self distruction never seemed so real.
I'm sorry.
I covered it with snow.
I tried to make it better.
But you just wanted to melt.
You said the sun is too hot,
my limbs do not provide you enough shade.
You'd rather be a puddle?
I gave you what you wanted.
It's what you asked for.
Relax, it only burns for a minute.
Well, until the chlorine injected in your veins dissolves.
I 'd kiss you...
But i'm afraid I'll drown.
I could show you a magic trick.
If you wanted.
I could make you disappear.
Close your eyes.
Now count to three.
Self distruction never seemed so real.
August 22, 2010
Old - 05/26/09
I'm not yours.
She is your girl.
She is your lady,your woman,your world.
I just caught a glimpse
of dreams in your eyes.
On nights that you wish
to find truth in your lies.
Tell me lies,
drink from my eyes.
She is your lady.
I'm not your girl.
I'm not your life,your woman, your world.
Melt down the gold
you hold dear to the hand,
that reaches out to more than i can.
I keep changing the locks.
You keep finding the key.
She is your air,
but you keep breathing in me.
She is your girl.
She is your lady,your woman,your world.
I just caught a glimpse
of dreams in your eyes.
On nights that you wish
to find truth in your lies.
Tell me lies,
drink from my eyes.
She is your lady.
I'm not your girl.
I'm not your life,your woman, your world.
Melt down the gold
you hold dear to the hand,
that reaches out to more than i can.
I keep changing the locks.
You keep finding the key.
She is your air,
but you keep breathing in me.
July 30, 2010
Who ever decided to rid the working world of nap time after kindergarten, is a horrible person!
Why did I just drive 1 1/2 hours to Center City Philadelphia to sit at a desk and do absolutely nothing for 8 hours? My life has become a repetition of meaningless obligations and sleep deprivation.
Someone save me from this black hole I call life.
I've been awake for about 5 hours now and have yet to accomplish anything worldly significant. I have done nothing courageous, saintly, nor life changing. I have not made the world a better place.
I did, however, debate the proper pluralization of the fabulous English word "cent". I must admit, I was greatly shocked by the stupidity of today's society.
I end this random babble with:
Tarnished lungs from belting out,
my muffled screams,
And hopeless shouts.
Refrain me.
Contain me.
Relieve my head of pain in me.
Someone save me from this black hole I call life.
I've been awake for about 5 hours now and have yet to accomplish anything worldly significant. I have done nothing courageous, saintly, nor life changing. I have not made the world a better place.
I did, however, debate the proper pluralization of the fabulous English word "cent". I must admit, I was greatly shocked by the stupidity of today's society.
I end this random babble with:
Tarnished lungs from belting out,
my muffled screams,
And hopeless shouts.
Refrain me.
Contain me.
Relieve my head of pain in me.
June 15, 2010
My Life When I Was Art.. Part 2
02-10-10
And he said..
"Did I turn you evil miss?
Did I make a beautiful killer?
Are you good at what you do miss?
At who you are and who you were?
I knew you once before
when I traveled in despair.
You feel across my door
I never knew was there,
Did I strip you of your soul miss?
Did I take what was never mine?
Are you good at what you do miss?
At walking dead and seeing blind?
04-19-10
I though about you today, under the maple tree.
Where the grass didn't grow, the shade didn't fall,
and I prayed for wisdom's breeze.
I pondered of the day, I'd stumble across an ant
Who would breathe deciet beside my feet
and roll another plant.
I feared you'd never come.
I cried you never would.
And all I had to hope for,
was the ant hill where I stood.
He'll come out once again, like when he promised we'd never part.
How could an ugly duckling rip me of my heart?
And he promised love,
promised joy, the world, his care.
He promised all these riches I never knew were there.
He carved it in so slowly.
Oh, the unknowing pain is by far the worst.
To have your veins disessembled, your heart ripped out,
never knowing you were cursed.
And he will come out again.
To show me the dark side.
Like when I was teetering on the window ledge
and he coached me back inside.
Kissed my fears, wiped my tears,
and made me feel alive.
He brought me to the elevator
Went up.
Then chucked me right outside.
He stole my soul.
He stripped me of my life.
Destroyed my mind, my world,
And handed me a knife.
I want to be the one to say...
Persuasive lies are always told with despairing eyes.
And he said..
"Did I turn you evil miss?
Did I make a beautiful killer?
Are you good at what you do miss?
At who you are and who you were?
I knew you once before
when I traveled in despair.
You feel across my door
I never knew was there,
Did I strip you of your soul miss?
Did I take what was never mine?
Are you good at what you do miss?
At walking dead and seeing blind?
04-19-10
I though about you today, under the maple tree.
Where the grass didn't grow, the shade didn't fall,
and I prayed for wisdom's breeze.
I pondered of the day, I'd stumble across an ant
Who would breathe deciet beside my feet
and roll another plant.
I feared you'd never come.
I cried you never would.
And all I had to hope for,
was the ant hill where I stood.
He'll come out once again, like when he promised we'd never part.
How could an ugly duckling rip me of my heart?
And he promised love,
promised joy, the world, his care.
He promised all these riches I never knew were there.
He carved it in so slowly.
Oh, the unknowing pain is by far the worst.
To have your veins disessembled, your heart ripped out,
never knowing you were cursed.
And he will come out again.
To show me the dark side.
Like when I was teetering on the window ledge
and he coached me back inside.
Kissed my fears, wiped my tears,
and made me feel alive.
He brought me to the elevator
Went up.
Then chucked me right outside.
He stole my soul.
He stripped me of my life.
Destroyed my mind, my world,
And handed me a knife.
I want to be the one to say...
Persuasive lies are always told with despairing eyes.
May 21, 2010
My Life When I Was Art..
Puppet Master 11/25/08
You hate it, that you like it,
that I don't do what you're exspecting.
It's a mastermind of perception.
And I'm the leader of the dance.
But these strings are tangling up,
and I'm tripping on the stage.
And you're the puppet master,
controlling all the moves.
How did you get up in the curtains?
Are you crying in the shadows..
I think i felt a few.
Death Rope 10/11/08
I have that rope in my body today.
The one where one knot is tied to my heart,
and the other to my stomach.
So that with each step they wrench
farther apart.
Torturing me.
My only fear,
Which happens to be the same fear
everytime this death rope creeps apon me,
Is that today..
It will win.
Untitled 9/03/09
Whisper in my ear. How Do you hear?
How do you drown in fear?
The winds are much to strong
the clouds rain harder then your tears.
It's safe to say, You don't exist 1/28/10
And they brought out the evil in me.
The most beautiful demon one could meet.
I tore away their skin, with the caress of my hand,
kissed the lips of the damned
And bared the souls of their feet.
And they bled.
They poured out lies I begged them to tell,
Cried blood from their eyes,
and drank from my well.
Beneath the sorrow from my heart
that was stolen from me.
And past the longing for my soul
that pondered defeat.
I lived among the evil,
I never knew was there.
And it creeped of from behind me,
It stripped me cold and bare.
And I kissed the mouth of and ugly creature,
who was calling out to me.
How he slithered up and took my world
and burried it at my feet.
Should I ever love again,
i will be inclined to say
it will be my end.
Untitled 2/01/10
How many before me made you feel the way I do?
I hope you fall in love with me, So I could rip your heart out too.
Going green is the new best thing
I won't throw it in the trash.
I'll recycle all your arteries, and trade the rest for cash.
You hate it, that you like it,
that I don't do what you're exspecting.
It's a mastermind of perception.
And I'm the leader of the dance.
But these strings are tangling up,
and I'm tripping on the stage.
And you're the puppet master,
controlling all the moves.
How did you get up in the curtains?
Are you crying in the shadows..
I think i felt a few.
Death Rope 10/11/08
I have that rope in my body today.
The one where one knot is tied to my heart,
and the other to my stomach.
So that with each step they wrench
farther apart.
Torturing me.
My only fear,
Which happens to be the same fear
everytime this death rope creeps apon me,
Is that today..
It will win.
Untitled 9/03/09
Whisper in my ear. How Do you hear?
How do you drown in fear?
The winds are much to strong
the clouds rain harder then your tears.
It's safe to say, You don't exist 1/28/10
And they brought out the evil in me.
The most beautiful demon one could meet.
I tore away their skin, with the caress of my hand,
kissed the lips of the damned
And bared the souls of their feet.
And they bled.
They poured out lies I begged them to tell,
Cried blood from their eyes,
and drank from my well.
Beneath the sorrow from my heart
that was stolen from me.
And past the longing for my soul
that pondered defeat.
I lived among the evil,
I never knew was there.
And it creeped of from behind me,
It stripped me cold and bare.
And I kissed the mouth of and ugly creature,
who was calling out to me.
How he slithered up and took my world
and burried it at my feet.
Should I ever love again,
i will be inclined to say
it will be my end.
Untitled 2/01/10
How many before me made you feel the way I do?
I hope you fall in love with me, So I could rip your heart out too.
Going green is the new best thing
I won't throw it in the trash.
I'll recycle all your arteries, and trade the rest for cash.
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